After Breast Cancer, I Was Diagnosed with Cervical Cancer

As informed to Jacquelyne Froeber

January is Cervical Cancer Awareness Month.

I used to be standing within the checkout line at Walmart when my telephone rang. It was my gynecologist.

“Karen, your Pap take a look at got here again irregular — you have to are available for a biopsy,” she mentioned.

I sighed. Right here we go once more.

Eighteen months earlier, I’d been recognized with breast most cancers. Fortunately, we caught it early, however it was nonetheless most cancers. I used to be 46 on the time and didn’t see the necessity to hold my breasts in the event that they had been attempting to kill me, so I had a double mastectomy.

I’d hoped that my choice to have the surgical procedure would assist hold most cancers at bay, however I’m a nurse so I knew the irregular take a look at outcomes didn’t sound good.

And I used to be proper — I had cancerous cells all the way in which round my cervix. The surgeon eliminated the tissue throughout a cone biopsy, however I needed to wait three months to heal earlier than I might have a scan to see if any new cancerous cells had been rising.

The subsequent step was to see a gynecologic oncologist to speak about my choices going ahead. My associate Karen and I — sure, we’re each named Karen — met with the physician and went over the take a look at outcomes. Afterward, I turned into a kind of beautiful paper robes for the examination. When the physician returned to the room and mentioned “Karen,” we weren’t positive who he was speaking to.

“I’m going to name you Karen dressed,” he mentioned pointing to my associate. “And also you Karen undressed,” he mentioned to me for apparent causes.

Karen and I burst out laughing. It was the right remark on the good time.

I used to be grateful for all the help and love I obtained from my care group and household and pals, however the subsequent three months had been actually exhausting for me. My nurse mind was racked with obsessive anxiousness 24/7. Like a morbid recreation of frogger, I’d leap from analysis to analysis. It was torture to assume there is likely to be most cancers rising in my physique and I’m simply what … watching reruns of “Pals?” I felt helpless as a result of there was nothing I might do about it.

I’d not too long ago began a brand new healthcare job that helped hold my thoughts occupied. When the three months had been up and I lastly had the follow-up assessments, my fears had been confirmed: cancerous cells had been rising and I used to be scheduled to have a radical hysterectomy.

The day of the surgical procedure, my physician mentioned there was one catch: If the distinction dye they administered earlier than the surgical procedure confirmed that most cancers had moved to my lymph nodes, they wouldn’t do the hysterectomy and I’d want to start out chemotherapy and radiation straight away.

As they wheeled me into the working room, I made a be aware of the time and hoped I’d get up hours later cancer-free.

Once I got here to, I seemed on the clock and noticed that not a lot time had handed. Nonetheless, I smashed round my intestine and pelvic space — no incisions. I sank again into the mattress and listened to the quick beep of the monitor subsequent to me. After which I screamed into my pillow as loud as I might.

I used to be devastated. And the considered having to inform my son and Karen and everybody I knew that I had most cancers — once more — was virtually an excessive amount of to wrap my mind round. However as a nurse, I used to be used to placing on face even when issues had been falling aside. In order that’s what I did.

My therapy plan was aggressive: six chemotherapy classes and 25 rounds of radiation.

At first, I used to be excited to study that the chemotherapy wasn’t the sort that may make my hair fall out, however I might’ve shaved my head myself if that meant I didn’t should cope with the debilitating nausea and diarrhea I referred to as “liquid demise.”

One morning, about halfway by therapy, my abdomen began cramping so dangerous I couldn’t rise up all the way in which. My fingers had been bent and curled inward and Karen needed to drive me to the emergency room.

My blood work confirmed I had extraordinarily low ranges of magnesium and potassium. That doesn’t sound too severe, however I requested to be admitted — that’s how dangerous I felt. The one good factor that got here out of the scare was that I began new medicines to assist with the acute unwanted effects from the chemo and radiation. And I did really feel higher — or pretty much as good as you may while you’re going by therapy.

After the chemo and radiation had been over, I went again to work and tried to be enterprise as normal. However I used to be bodily and mentally exhausted. I used to be gradual to complete my nursing duties every single day and, one afternoon, my son needed to decide me up as a result of I had a panic assault. I ultimately misplaced my job, which appeared like the tip of the world on the time, however it turned out to be one of the best factor for me.

I’d been placing on my “pretend face” and attempting to be sturdy for thus lengthy I didn’t know methods to be weak. Fortunately, Karen referred to as me out on my fakery and that’s after I began being sincere and going to counseling. I additionally joined a cervical most cancers survivor group on Fb and met up with a member in the future for espresso.

Karen at a Cervivor occasion, 2022

As we talked about our experiences, a lightweight bulb went off in my head. I’d been feeling so alone — like I used to be the one individual on the planet going by cervical most cancers. However I wasn’t alone. It was like discovering the final piece to the puzzle, and all the pieces clicked. I spotted that I used to be nonetheless a nurse and I might nonetheless assist folks, simply another way.

At present, I’m an envoy for the affected person advocacy group Cervivor. I additionally lead Cervivor PRIDE for sexual and gender minority (LGBTQIA+) survivors. My aim is to supply help and steering to anybody who has/had cervical most cancers as a result of I’m an open e book and I might’ve executed quite a lot of issues in another way throughout therapy (hi there, remedy and a greater weight loss program).

It’s been eight years since my analysis and I’m completely satisfied to say I’m NED — no proof of illness. However I’m cautious to maintain up with my yearly appointments. Cervical most cancers is sneaky, and I do know it might come again any time. And whereas I believe “Karen Undressed” is totally hilarious, I’ll take “Karen No Proof of Illness” every single day.

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